Is it Bad day or Good Day??

I don't know how to begin my story  from where again, today i'm so sad but feel happy too....In the first i'll tell the good day. It's being together my friend. She helped me when i felt confused. She learned me to be calmed down to face my problems. She motivated me to finish everything and never think that the work is difficult even she learn me to be multi talented that we are as human be able to do everything and make it happened if we are sure and try hard. So build your minds to have a patience.

The suck days begin to come in my life. I cannot survive and spend my days for focusing in my job with my international partner from Japan, Korea, Hongkong, Taiwan, and China even client from Indonesia. How to finish it step by step for all of them. I should serve well my customers and delivery the orders from the each country that they choose. I began stressed to manage my day from where because i have many responsibilities that i must finish well. I don't wanna make everything messed up or dissapointed someone in my bad works. I try hard but i'm always careless.

The relax day is far always from me.. In one side, there are many clients waiting me to finish what they wanted, but in other side, my daddy needs my help him to keep the shop. Besides, i must train for my contest with my bestfriends, We should make our performance being unique and  make a show like "it's our show that we never feel it again, just one chance to reach our dream". Also, i should spare the time to make it my dream to come true in my private course, learn and study well in college and finish my many tasks that makes me dizzy and being sad in my self if i do wrong. I will feel guilty inmyself coz i make everyone around me feel dissapointed with my mistakes or my carelessness. So what should i do now??. As my bestfriend said, i should be tough and keep spirit to face it well, because this is the beginning and you should begin in smiling face to improve yourself. If you wanna be successful, you will get many responsibilities more than that you feel it now. I'm a bit amused by her advice. I begin to do with her advice to give a smile to other people around me, whereas my feeling is so afraid, worried, stressed, unhappy, confused, and dizzy  I'm not perfect like a God, i'm just ordinary girl that need to be relax time and lose the careleness in my days. I wanna do my best but i always be wrong to them, i don't know why they felt like that, whereas i try hard to make them happy, but they keep unhappy and unsatisfied with everything that i did. T.T

I want to shout loudly in a grassy meadow. I need freedom and happy life. How to get it well??. I guess all of you will know my personality like what. but i wrote to lose my stressed, maybe it will be less and then i keep fighting to face this job experiences

Hmn...I need daddy right nowww....I don't know what terms of order in daddy's shop.
Daddy went business trip for 10days to China now. There are some jobs that he did with their partner. My responsibility become many and many. In college, there are many tasks that i must finish expecially mini essays, team and project management and intercultural communication to promote other country for people. Also in contest, i have tasks to write the articles and promotion essay in one of website. I wanna try many things but i guess i should waste one by one and focusing to help my daddy before i make him dissapointedT.T

Hoaaaa.....I almost forgot to my little responsibilities to be like housewife works. Such as washing clothes and dishes, scrubbing and folding clothes, sweeping and mopping floors, cooking, and the last is feeding my beloved cat...

God, please give me to be strong to face the responsibility like this. Keep spirit, Yuli!!!